|Your all I ever needed.|
I don’t usually take this time of year seriously.
I have never really thought about the new year and what it signifies for me.
I am usually just happy to see the holiday ‘hustle and bustle’ over, allowing me to go back to normal life again.
This year has already been different.
This year I have been thinking quite a bit about what I want to ‘change’ in my life for 2013.
I have been meditating, journaling and reading.
Simply connecting to me.
I have been ‘laying low’ in my own thoughts, hoping to discover where I want and need to spend my energy working on this year.
Hoping to find the answer for what I need to do to make this my year.
My year for conscious living.
My year for being here happily.
Through this process of self discovery, I realized something important.
I don’t want to change anything.
I love me.
I love my life.
My fateful path has taken me to this place.
My individual and incredible journey.
I want surrender to this journey.
Allow it to unfold organically.
Surrender was my answer.
I simply want to work on surrender.
Surrendering to being a conscious member of this universe.
I want to let go of the baggage holding me down.
I want to be free of restriction, judgements and limitations.
I want to be authentic in my imperfection, without trying to please expectations.
I want to be honest, respectful and loving. Always. To myself and to the world around me.
I want to let go of judgements. Listen more. Judge and assume less.
I want to have fun. Let go of my restrictions and rules. Smile and Laugh. I want to be excited for each day and all the possibilities that lay ahead.
I want to connect to my spiritual ‘side’. Go to church. Meditate. Do yoga. Show my children through action the strength of a strong spirituality.
I want to connect with my body. Nourish it. Move it. Respect it.
I feel strong.
I feel ready to conquer this year with strength that will resonate into all aspects of my life. Making me a more loving wife, respectful parent, attentive sister and daughter and available friend.
I am ready to let the waterfall of happiness fill the cups all around me.
“Those who are truly enlightened, those whose souls are illuminated by love, have been able to overcome all of the inhibitions and preconceptions of their era. They have been able to sing, to laugh, and to pray out loud; they have danced and shared what Saint Paul called ‘the madness of saintliness’. They have been joyful – because those who love conquer the world and have no fear of loss. True love is an act of total surrender.”
-Paulo Coelho (by the river piedra I sat down and wept)