A tribute to the wonderful people in my life: part one

I was thinking last night, I am a lucky person. I have such great people in my life who do so much for me. I do not feel like I give them enough credit or recognition.
Also it can be hard for me to express myself fully while speaking to people. I fand I get all flustered and mix my words up. Writing is much easier.
So it made me think, I am going to use my blog (since it appears like people are actually reading this πŸ™‚ as way to let the people in my life know how much I love and appreciate them.

Part one is going to be about my mom and Rick.

My mom and rick are tow of the most giving people I have met. I really don’t know where i would be with out them. They are a huge support system for Court and I. They are so helpful to us and have been over this last year especially as we adjust to being new parents.

They are always here to help us if it means helping to put up the Christmas lights or ta king the girls for a few hours. They will always be there and have proved that. There is this wonderful sense of comfort knowing that there is is someone in the world who is always there for you no matter what.

I can be a very difficult person to deal with at times, but they are always calm and understanding with me even if they think I am being crazy or even if I am being quite rude. They have accepted Courtney as one of there own children and welcome  him into our family so seamlessly, that makes me so happy. They also make a great support system for court when I have gone little loco, He calls them to say “Jess has gone a little crazy again” and they know what he means… I know that is nice for him. Because sometimes it can be hard to talk me down, and with the help of my mom usually it doesn’t take long for me to realize I am being irrational.

They love the girls so much and love to spend time with them. They never see them as a burden. They understand that court and I need a break sometimes and are willing to take my munchkins for a sleep over every now and then. Like tonight they have decided not to go out new years eve, they want to take the girls so we can have a relaxed evening with friends. We didn’t even ask them, they just knew that we could use it.

I really do appreciate their love and attentiveness to us. I really don’t think I get to tell them enough how much we appreciate everything they do for us. 

I love you guys tons and tons!

Much love

Jessica

ps. mom, I know you read my blog, so if you are reading this let Rick read it πŸ™‚

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Day 3 and Day 4

Not going so well 😦
Day two ended up being a write off. I had a food melt down in the afternoon and scarfed down way to much food, then it continued on to the evening.
Day 3, again was a complete meltdown. I felt guilty for the day before and ate too much again.
Day 3 as well had no exercise… I have been exhausted over the last 2 days and have trouble getting up to exercise. It probably has to do with all the junk food.

Today is Day 4, It has not started off awesome. Again I was super duper tired, and could not wake up till the babies woke up at 8 am, there for no exercise yet. I had a anxiety meltdown this morning with court and the babies. It was just one of those days were I felt like there was too much to do and not enough time to do it all in. But court was patient, he picked up coffee and breakfast sandwiches to cheer me up and once we ate and put the babies down for a nap, we cleaned up together and organized a plan to divide the housework so I do not feel so overwhelmed. So it is now 11 am and the babies are still napping and i have a much better outlook on today.
I don’t really have the energy to make a meal plan and since it  new years eve I know I am going to eat more treats tonight, So todays plan is to keep it a healthy as possible.
I am going to try and go out for  a nice long walk with the babies this afternoon, for my exercises. If I have time I will try and to do my biggest loser exercises.

I hope everyone has a wonderful new years eve! We are “sans les bebe” tonight…So it should be fun πŸ™‚

Much love,

Jessica

Day two- the new regime :)

I am blogging in the morning today. I am going to write out what I plan on eating and exercising today. I hope that it will keep me accountable.

Exercise:
Yoga. I have already done 20 minutes. Maybe another 20 minutes later today. I am in a yoga mood
Walk with the girls in their stroller. at least 30 minutes.

Food:
Breakfast:
2 pieces of whole wheat toast with almond butter
OJ
Coffee with a little soy milk

Snack:
Yogurt and granola
water

Lunch:
Bean salad
Pop chips with hummus
Water

Snack:
banana
water

Dinner:
mini mushroom, roasted red peppers, and sun dried tomato pizza
salad
water

Snack:
I am heading to a girl friends house for a little get together tonight.
I will allow my self 2 glasses of wine, and a few snacks but I am going to try and stay near veggies.

Home, when I am alone with you.

Court introduced me to a song this week by Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros (They have a fantastic sound, you should check them out πŸ™‚ . It is called Home.

The song had lyrics that I really related to at that moment. We were listening to his mp3 player in the car on the drive home from a crazy busy family dinner, and a line in the song came on the stereo…

“Home, let me go home, home is whenever I am with you”

I loved that line. At that moment it spoke exactly how I was feeling.

Life can be so crazy sometimes (especially over Christmas πŸ™‚ but I feel so comfortable with my family. Home is when I am with them.

Life can wind me up and make life chaotic but when I am alone with my little family, I am at home.

Sometime it can even be in a crowded crazy room and I have the girls in my lap or court is sitting beside me, all  have to do is  look in their eyes, and you have those moments of being the only people in the room, I am back home again and feel at peace.

Much love,

Jessica

Day one

When I was on Weight Watchers 2 years ago, I lost 25 pounds and was down to a weight that I felt the most comfortable at, then I got pregnant with twins.

I want to feel a little more comfortable in my own skin again. I am beginning my journey to feeling a little more comfortable in the new me.

I am going about losing weight in a much different way then before. Last time I lost the weight I did weight watchers point system. I basically switched my food addiction to a “counting points” addiction. I never actually battled the real demon; My addiction to eating too much and eating unhealthy foods. I am going to conquer that demon this time.

I am changing my though process with food. I am going to eat much more naturally and logically. I am going to attempt to eat more often and less food, and drink lots and lots of water. No calorie or point tracking. Just being aware of the food I put into my mouth. Not just stuff my face with whatever is easiest. I have no excuses. I am able to find time to make my children well balanced and healthy meals. I will now have to focus on including my own meals in the prep work.

I know that with losing weight, not only do you change your eating patterns but you have to change your exercise patterns. I don’t  love to exercise in the conventional way (aka. the gym). So I am going to be creative and workout with the Wii fit and biggest loser exercises, Go on more long walks with the girls and do much more yoga.

There is one thing that I did love about Weight Watchers and that was the online blogs. You could go on daily and make yourself accountable for your food and and exercise logging the food you ate and amount you exercised. I loved that! and it really kept me motivated each day, So I am just going to keep myself a workout/food journal on my blog. That may bore some of you who read this, but it is much needed for me πŸ™‚

Today was Day one.

Excercise log:
Unfortunately I did not wake up in time to do my exercise before the girls woke up.
So no exercise today, I have come to know that I cannot exercise at night.

I am a morning exerciser πŸ™‚
but tomorrow I will do yoga and biggest loser exercises before the girls wake up.

Food log:
Breakfast:
one piece of whole wheat toast
poached egg
one coffee with one sugar
*I am happy with this meal, but I am going to stop with the sugar in my coffee…

Snack:
orange juice
costco food samples…
*we went to costco today…I didn’t eat to much…but i really like the samples πŸ™‚

Lunch:
Chicken club wrap with Swiss Chalet sauce
garden salad with italian dressing
a few of court’s fries…maybe 10?
*not a bad lunch. I was impressed that I choose the salad instead of fries and did not overly regret it πŸ™‚

Snack:
missed an afternoon snack. It was abusy afternoon. I will do better tomorrow.

Dinner:
Turkey meatloaf
Steamed sweet potatoes
Steamed brocolli
*I made the meatloaf from the recipe book Court gave me for christmas. It was delish!

Snack:
Small piece of almond biscotti
peppermint tea
banana with almond butter
* I do most of my overeatting in the evening so this snack wasn’t too bad.

Could I be the biggest loser?

My wonderful husband Courtney spoiled me this Christmas. He tends to do that. I can’t really complain, Sometimes he is a procrastinator and leaves it all to the last minute or on rare occasions misses the holiday all together but in the end he loves to spoil. It is nice, I am not going to lie πŸ™‚

So, this year I got some lovely things, new perfume, a pink scarf and a beautiful picture frame from blackbird, a game for the Wii (family game night, super fun…so far I am the champ of Life πŸ™‚ and a whole bunch of “biggest loser” cookbooks and  the biggest loser and fitness trainer Wii games.

Now the last gifts you may think are mean, sending me messages that maybe I need to lose weight. But what it tell me is that Court is listens to me and is trying to help me with my problem. Working out and finding healthy recipes to prepare when you have twin babies to take care is really hard!

I cannot get to the gym. There is just not enough time, with working 25 hours a week and the twins, I just barley have time to write this blog πŸ™‚ I want to get in shape again and feel healthy, so these Wii games are suppose to be my saving grace!

So I decide to start the biggest loser program today (why wait for the new year, today is a new day!) , at first I felt so silly jumping around my living room in my jammies and sports bra, but you know what, I ended up loving it!

I have totally privacy, I have Bob from the “Biggest loser” cheering me on and I do it on my own time. I woke up at 5:00 am to get in a work out, and now am relaxing before I go have my shower and wait for the babies to rise.

It is wonderful! I am so excited to get in shape again, even if the process is much different them I am used to. We all have to adapt to our situations right?
Now the next step is meal planning with all my great cookbooks. I think I will sit down and do that tonight after work! Wish me Luck πŸ™‚

Much love,

Jessica

Resolutions?!

So it is only a week and a bit till New Years day (I know, I know I am already skipping over Christmas…but bear with me)

and all I can think about is…..
NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS!

In previous years I tend to spend alot of time thinking about what I am going to change in the new year.
And the year is no different. Yesterday at work I was thinking about what I wanted to change about my life and myself come the new year (I am always thinking about change, I am Sagittarius, It is one of our may qualities, “To enjoy and crave change”) and I had a list that felt a mile long.
It was kind of depressing. Thinking that I wanted to change so much about my life.

but you know what….
I am NOT going to try and change everything about myself because I think I could possibly be “better”. I am who I am.
I am a loud, tornado like woman who can be grumpy sometimes (OK…alot of the time πŸ™‚ . I am a person who is selffish on occasion, and can be quite bull headed. I am highly sensitive and passionate about the things I care for. I can be bossy, overdemanding and overbearing but like I said earlier, that is me. I have always been like this.
So why do I expect that a new year will change that?

I am sure I am not the only one who is to over critical of themselves.
So Why do we do this to ourselves?

It feels like we are constantly trying to grow as people and change certain personalty traits, but at what point are we allowed to just be in the moment of who we are now. When can we just accept that this is me?

I do understand that we need a certain level of drive to change and excel as a person but maybe it is just a little too excessive. We are not perfect and our “negative” qualities make us who we are just as much a our “positive” qualities too.

So I concluded, I am only going to have one new year resolution this year, to smile and enjoy the moment more.
(and why wait, I might as well start today πŸ™‚

Much love,

Jessica

PS. Merry Christmas Eve! I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday season with family and friends! Enjoy every moment for what it is!